Inconsistentcy

What is a girl to say? My laziness is catching up to me. I miss blogging! Things in life have settled down, work is busier but home life is less hectic than ever, so it's time to get back on track.

In June I wrote about getting healthier, eating better, blah-blah-blah, but that only worked for a few weeks. The hubs can eat whatever he wants, so in turn, I believe I can too! Not. Candy does not help you shed pounds. Nor does cake, cookies or pies. But I tell myself lies! Of course you can eat that cupcake, it's not a mistake. You'll work it off tomorrow! If not, you'll wallow in sorrow.

So I started going to the gym... a lot. I've lost some inches, gained some muscle, but I'm stuck in the weight rut. It doesn't mean I'm not happy with myself, I am definitely proud that I've continued regardless of not seeing the scale move, but it is so discouraging. I've been cutting back on calories, watching what I eat more than ever, and that is helping - but of course if I don't eat enough, I can't work out! Then the plague hits. Thanks plague, I needed you - AGAIN. So here I am, throwing this huge pity party for myself while I try to overcome a horrendous cold.

Venting took a dent out of my day, so time to get back to slinging fish and mushrooms to pay for my tropical vacation in November. Yes. Maui - again! 47 days. Let's count down and hope this weight just slides off. Because that happens, right?

Simple Ways to Eat 10 pounds

Now, this has always been my food blog - about food I eat, cook, and love... now I may take a small detour to the land of "better eating!" I don't believe in diets. Diets don't work. Lifestyle changes always work... but we all choose whether or not to stick with that. I, in the last few months, haven't.

I love food. Plain and simple. I love sweets, salt, vegetables, carbohydrates, basically anything that isn't fresh tomatoes (unless it's pico de gallo). My amazing job has taught me more than most people can imagine about food. From Foie Gras to White Anchovies... Truffles and fiddlehead ferns. Yesterday for lunch? We had Dungeness Crab and cream cheese filled Morels. I never in my life thought I would experience such delicacies.

Problem: I've gained 30 pounds in 6 months!! My eating habits have gotten out of control - and I do blame it on happiness and mindless eating. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm tired, I eat when I'm wired. My thoughts and my life revolves around FOOD.

Today I'm struggling with my body image, and my impulse eating. This morning? I ate Gluten free French toast, and a gluten free waffle... I drank my coffee, drank some water, but decided "it was gluten free so it's not that bad"... and polished off the Albacore tuna noodle casserole I had made (topped with fried onions of course). Later, I REALLY wanted peanut butter and chocolate "muddy buddies" ... Aka: Puppy chow. So I gave in, made it, and ate half of the HUGE container I made. Now I feel awful. I feel fat. My figure is fabulously feminine, and I love my curves, but right now the curves are feeling more like bulges and flab.

It's time.

I'm roasting some edamame to have for a snack. Baked cauliflower and shiitakes with dinner, All Natural Teres Major, grilled, and grilled jalapeno stuffed peppers. Time to GET ON TRACK. How many times can one say this in their lifetime? Many. It doesn't matter if I stay on it forever, eating healthy is something we will learn throughout our lifetimes, not in one day. I will still cheat, I will still eat, I will indulge and feel the bulge. It's all a matter of choice.